let God.

the worst could yet happen
and the day's not over
still it gets darker
and i run for cover
not finding much
but losing all
so i let go

can't see sense in everything
what i do understand is sacrifice
there is no 'suffice'
there's many more tries
the choice may crush
i'll risk, maybe fall
but i'll let God.


kinda cheesy? i know. just off the top of my head...does say it all, how i'm feeling today.

there was a struggle to choose, and i chose. even if no one may fully understand, i know it was done in love. so with all the pain in my chest, i say 'no regrets'. and i'll swallow it down and take it with a smile, because the best choice is always that one you chose which totally denies your SELF - crucified.

'ginosko' denotes understanding beyond just plain knowledge. to learn to know, to come to know, feel, to be aware of. today i reflected on that choice, and i feel the repercussions like a knife lodged into my heart (and pressed in further, still). but i know i chose right. doesn't need to feel right.